This past weekend I left my girl for the first time. Because I nanny and bring her with me to work, I really haven't been away from her more than an hour or two at a time. So.. being away the whole weekend was a big deal for me. I went on a float trip with my siblings and their partners, and it really was a good time. It was through the Mark Twain National Park (which is worth the 5 hour drive down), and even though it was a lot of fun and we made good memories, I found myself having a difficult time trying to enjoy myself. I couldn't stop thinking about my baby, and feeling guilty for leaving her at home which I've struggled with ever since she was born. Its crazy how quickly your priorities change after you have a baby. Wherever my girl is, is where I want to be. But on the other hand of it I don't want to create attachment problems in the future for her because I'm being selfish and don't ever want to leave her. And I know it's important for her to get quality time with her grandparents also. So, here are some of the things that helped me make it through the weekend.. Always having company, watching videos I had previously taken of her before bed, and also her grandma's helped me feel better by sending me pictures and videos a couple times a day. As you can imagine.. I was ecstatic to see her when Sunday came around!